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Writer's Block: Bucket list

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 19:19:36 GMT

If you found out you only had six months left to live, what would you do with the rest of your life? Do you have a "bucket list"?

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Bucket lists seem like an awful lot of pressure to me. If I knew I had six months to live, the last thing I'd want was a To Do list with such a concrete deadline hanging over my head.

To answer the first question, I'd spend most of my time with God, my family, and my friends. The rest of the time? I'd be writing or dancing, more likely the former so there's more...evidence of my life, as morbid of a thought that is.

it's all because of Jesus i'm alive

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 22:28:40 GMT

Today, I remembered that I'm alive.

Which sounds either incredibly deep, or incredibly cheesy, you can choose. I think it's a bit of both.

Today, I remembered that I love to write. Today, I remembered that walks are where I usually think about life and stuff. Today, I remebered that music can pull at every string you have, breaking some while replacing others. Today, I remembered that I try to be poetic in blogs. Today, I remembered that open, empty, outdoor spaces are some of the most peaceful places on earth. Today, I remembered that I'm happy. Today, I remembered that dance is one of two things that I can always count on to help me find happiness, peace, and myself. Today, I remembered that the other thing, is not really a thing at all. Today, I remembered God.

I've been ridiculous. Not in this post (though I'm sure some of you would disagree), this is the most sense I've made in a long time. But, before today, I was just kind of watching life, going through the motions, so incredibly apathetic. I thought some thoughts I hated. I still will, but not like that.

I can't say what brought this on, though I think I know, but today I realized that I've been sucking at life. Well, this is something I've known, but today I realized that as long as I'm alive, I can change that. So, I'm working on it. I danced. I took the notebook and pen Ailis gave me for my birthday, sat at a picnic table in an open, empty, outdoor space, and planned a story. I let myself listen to music, the way where you listen so hard that you're almost inside the song. I paused my music walking to work, and remembered the sounds of life. I prayed. I set up a writing challenge (a chapter every two days, let's see how I do!). I sang to God.

And I am so incredibly filled with joy now, it's kind of ridiculous. I'm happy. I'm at peace. I know who I am.

I am so alive.

Writer's Block: And the Apple Goes To

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 23:19:11 GMT

Who is/was your favorite teacher in school?

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Ms. Nugent, my teacher for ENG11ADV. Her class was my favourite, but that was only a part of it. When I did her assignments, and was told I did them well, my confidence grew, and that year especially, I so needed that. She called me a writer, and I'll never forget that. She's asked for an autographed copy of my first book, and I so hope to be able to send her one some day.

Jeanine Mason: She Can Get It

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 23:11:10 GMT

My latest montage! Jeanine has become my favourite over the past couple of weeks, and while I'm still casual about this season compared to others, I'm definitely pulling for her. I was ecstatic when she made the finale, and I'll be watching the finale just for her.

will you be the same when we see you again?

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 21:50:25 GMT

So, I really suck at goodbyes.

I knew this, but it's worse than it thought. I was in St. Martins Saturday morning, wishing we would have finished with goodbyes Friday night, hoping for the rain to wash out the yard sales, wanting to go back to my family, my friends, and really, my shower, just my usual life. From Thursday night on, I was homesick. But, now that I'm home, I'm just sick of being the same.

I've been wanting to write a testimony of sorts about Tidal Impact, detailing everything - and I still plan to - but I've been finding myself struggling over how to sum it all up. I just figured it out. Tidal Impact was different.

I agreed to go on a week-long trip with a youth group I'd only spent, at most, a couple of hours with. In September, I was hesitant (and by hesitant, I mean terrified) to go on a weekend trip with my youth group. I wasn't really that scared this time, either. A little nervous, because I really had no idea what to expect, and I'm awful at being away from home, but I was still more excited than I was in September. Not only was it one youth group I had to connect with in a week, but two, as the one in St. Martins was hosting us.

I was quiet, but I was never really shy. I did ministry. I took communion, and really felt God for the first time in a long time, to the point where I was moved to tears. I got ready quickly in the morning. I was honest about my insecurities in my faith to the ones who were trusting me as a leader. I flirted with a boy. I didn't really think about crying in front of others, I just did it. I played soccer. I had a late-night, lights-out, heart-to-heart with someone I'd known for about a day. I didn't cling to to the friends I'd made before the trip as much as I thought I would. I didn't run away from the sparks of a bonfire. I went a week without television and internet, and from Tuesday on, without my iPod. I broke some rules. I did a puddle obstacle course. I had a lot of fun, with awesome people, realizing, for once, that it was all because of God.

I said I suck at goodbyes. I do. I miss the village, the people, the ministry, the rallies, the whole experience of Tidal Impact - that it was all hard to say goodbye to, and it still it.

What's becoming impossible to say goodbye to is being different, breaking my routine, having that chance to reinvent yourself for a town that has no idea who you've been. I really miss who I could be.

I'm hoping that university will be another opportunity for that kind of change, because to be honest, I'm getting really sick of myself. This past week made me realize that I am so much more than I try to be. I can do more, I can be more is better, and I really hope that I can fall out of routine, and into my potential.

Maybe this is my testimony, I don't know, I just know that it needed to be told.

Why SYTYCD6 Will Win...

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 19:09:52 GMT

Teddy Tedholm. That's all.

Win

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 22:56:58 GMT

This song just became the sexiest thing in the world.

Also, I has short hair, the shortest its ever been in my life. It's above my shoulders, and after the salon styling, I love it, but who knows what I'll think tomorrow :P I also has my schedule for next year (hopefully!) I'm happy with it, no classes on Friday, start late on Mondays & Wednesdays but also end late, start early on Tuesdays & Thursdays but also end early. So, it works out nicely :) Hopefully I can get each of these sections, because doing up the schedule is the biggest pain in the world, so creating more than one back-up schedule is not something I'm likely to do.

what made us think we were wise?

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 02:31:40 GMT

I just graduated high school. The fact that it was really all ending only really sunk in tonight, and for the first time since this countdown began, I'm actually pretty sad. Excited too, but now that I'm officially done with high school, and there's nothing else for me to do there...it's odd. It was a good night though, didn't fall walking across the stage, and I received a faculty bursary and the Economics 12 (I know, lulz) award. Thing is, I didn't know until my dad told me after the fact, I completely blanked out on stage :P I can't believe that almost all of the teachers I love are going to be gone next year, and it makes the whole thing feel so much more final.

I think I'm actually going to miss it.

Prom Hair Help?

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 17:22:53 GMT

So, there are about a billion and two things going on for me to talk about, but right now, I need help picking a hairstyle for prom :P

I'd post a picture of my dress, but I have no cord for my camera. It's strapless, and I have no jewelry. Because of that, I want it down, or half-up, half-down. And, I think I want it curly, because my hair has been curly...twice in my life? Once for Grad, but it was in updo. Once for a dance recital, and I LOVED it, so yes, curly. Or, kind of curly? Really pretty waves :P In other words, not my natural waves.

So, I've found two pictures that I like, but if anyone knows if any other styles even somewhat like what I said above, please, show them to me. I am so bad at this kind of thing.

Which do you prefer, or, should I go for something else all together?

When Life Gives You Lemons: Prologue

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 03:27:59 GMT

Title: When Life Gives You Lemons
Author: Bri
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Tiffany’s lemonade stand was her home. It was where she sketched, where she designed, where she beaded, and where she dreamt. The summer after senior year, as her friends prepare for college, she works at transforming her lemonade stand into a jewelry stand, where her dream eventually turns sour. But, she has one customer, Ethan, known to her as #2, his life marked with the stamp of a secondary quarterback. As they talk, Tiffany realizes that they could be the push the other needs to fight for their dreams, but there’s one problem. The best day in business she ever had? When she was asked to design a custom engagement ring for his girlfriend.
Author’s Notes:
• If I don’t post this, I won’t write it, so here it is. I have no idea if this will be finished, but I want to try the idea.
• The summary kind of really sucks, because I don’t have a half a clue where this is going And yes, I do use the same names in everything

Prologue
Ethan couldn’t believe in this moment.

He was raised in a church, where he was taught of, and handed, second, third and fourth chances. There was never an It, an End, an Over, there were always possibilities, opportunities to turn Ends and Overs into Starts and Beginnings.

But as he stood on, not in, his home, under a sky grayer than he knew, feelings his cleats sink in the wet grass, in a huddle with his family, it felt desperate.

“This is It.”

He heard the capital in his coach’s voice, a hovering voice above the team’s collective silence.

“Eagles versus the Bears,” Derek mumbled into the space between his team. “It’s like the Cold War.”

There was teasing about spending less time in the history books in more time on the football field, but Ethan still wasn’t there, he wasn’t home. He was just kind of standing on it, casually resting on familiarity, but still striving for me.

The cheerleaders were singing spellings, the crowd was roaring indistinguishable noises, and Emma was holding a sign.

And for a moment, he forgot about the game, forgot about the scouts, forgot that this was It. He just took a moment to smile at his girlfriend, proclaiming that “Ethan is #2!” in loud, red marker, while admitting underneath, in silent, black marker, “But not to me.”

She caught his smile, and it met with a nod. He could do this.

The team broke their huddle, and Derek slapped him on the back as they ran to their positions. “So, I guess this is It for us, huh?”

Ethan nodded. “Last Chance.”

“You ready for Everything?”

Ethan looked at the football, and then Emma. Everything.

“You know what, I think I am.”

***

“You have to choose.”

***

It couldn’t be this easy to rebuild a life.

Tiffany threw beaded coil around the freshly painted sign, her past covered with a bright, funky future of neon colors and messy cursive. Fresh Start.

The sign read Last Chance. As far as she was concerned, they were one in the same.

Tiffany was born at a crossroad. There were two routes, simply Easy, and Hard. If she were to travel down Easy, she’d have to feel little, experience the necessary, and dream small. If she were to travel down Hard, well, she had no idea. The choice had been so obvious before, but now, she wasn’t so sure. Had the roads been misnamed?

She’d barely taken her first step down Hard, but already, she felt better. She felt possible.

Tiffany wore herself around her neck. A heart in a box, surrounded by beautifully mismatched beads, a collection from her kits over the years. It was her trapped from each part of her dream. But, now, her heart was beating, pounding against the walls of the box, desperate to come out, and live among the beautiful (who was to say they were mismatched, anyways?) beads, live among her dreams.

She could do it now. She was ready to do it now.

This was a Beginning. This was a Start.

This was a possibility, this was an opportunity, this was a chance. This was what she’d wanted since she first strung a necklace behind her lemonade stand at the age of eight.

This was terrifying.

She wasn’t sure if she was ready for Everything.

***

“We have to choose.”

can you tick tick tick tick tick, pop, lock, and drop it?

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 23:28:17 GMT

SYTYCD Spoiler comments after the cut, because if my mind thinks of quadratics, logs, probability, or circles for one more second, I may just forget all of it in one shot.

So, these are my pre-show thoughts, based on spoilers, because what's the fun of performance night if you don't go in biased?

Phillip and Jeanine - From the few shots of Jeanine we saw in Vegas, she looked kind of fieus, so I guess I like this pairing? I don't know her well enough. Also, I'm still bitter about Arielle, who yes, was cut in the second round of Vegas, but whatever, she was so cute with Phillip! So, they got the first NappyTabs Bleeding Love/No Air/Dead and Gone(AU) of the season. While I love all of these routines, I'm worried that they may become tired. Definitely excited for this one!

Asuka and Vitolio - I'm really not an Asuka fan, and while I love Vitolio's personality (not to mention, he has such an inspirational backstory as well), I really haven't seen enough of his dancing to love him yet. So, I'm pretty indifferent to this partnership. Tasty Oreo choreographed Broadway for them, and I feel like I'm the only person who loves his work? Except for Canned Heat, the most generic, dance-by-numbers, I-could-see-this-at-any-competition, routine the show has ever seen and yes, I am still bitter about Mark being stuck with it. ANYWAYS. Don't really care about this one, though I do want to see Vitolia in intro package.

Jonathon and Karla - I know, who?! All I remember is that Jonathon is hot, and Karla dances with Boogie Bots, who I never liked that much? But, I just saw part of her Blackbird solo on youtube, and it's kind of fieusmazing. So, they have potential. I'm interested in the two of them as individuals, not really interested in their Cha Cha, but that's my ballroom bias.

Evan and Randi - YAY EVAN WASN'T PAIRED WITH SOMEONE I HATE. But, don't really know Randi yet, other than her unitards. I loved her personality in that moment, though, it seems like her and Evan will mesh well. So happy they got a jazz by Tasty Oreo, and this is the routine/intro package I'm most excited for.

Tony and Paris - ...I'm scared of having to say "Yeah, I was wrong about Tony" after reading the spoilers. I may have stuck up for him too much :P REALLY bummed that he was paired with Paris, but I have a feeling my love may decrease after this week, especially since it sounds like he's a failboat at his on genre. I really do hope that I have a different opinion though, I really want to love this kid, there's so much potential there. Maybe Paris can just go home this week and he can get a new partner? And no, I don't need to see Paris dance tonight to know I want her gone :P I'm definitely interested in this dance, but for all the wrong reasons. Tony's intro package as well, but for the right reasons.

Jason and Caitlin - This partnership seems like it could be full of technical win. And they're dancing Bollywood! To Jai Ho (shocker!). Really excited for this one, I like these two :)

Brandon and Janette - The two dancers that I don't know if I love, or if they bug the crap out of me yet. Kind of indifferent towards them, and seeing their foxtrot, again, ballroom bias is a factor.

Porno and Ashley - I LOVE KUPONO. But, who in the world is Ashely? They're dancing Wade, which should be right up Porno's alley, and let's take a second to YAY over Wade coming back this season! I'm really excited for this one, partly because Wade is ridiculous, Kupono is sexy as anything, and I want to know who Ashely is.

Ade and Melissa - So much potential for cannon fodder, which is really sad, because ADE IS AMAZING AND I'M STILL SO BITTER THAT THEY GAVE HIM NO SCREENTIME. Creep him on youtube, he's ridiculous, and I love him. All I know about Melissa is that she's a naughty ballerina, who was in all the commercials, but her audition was barely shown? They're dancing contemporary, which should fit them well, but I'm worried about no one knowing who they are.

Max the Mediocre and Kayla - Really?! Kayla, my favourite girl, and Max, my least favourite guy? Really? Here's the plan. Max and Paris go home, and Kayla and Tony get paired together, like they wanted! Their samba is said to be all kinds of sex though, so I'm definitely excited, but for Kayla. Max, prove me wrong, and werk your genre for once.

Writer's Block: Venting

Fri, 29 May 2009 22:22:50 GMT

What's the most annoying thing that happened to you this week?

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That would have to be hurting my foot. I was dancing, and I think I was going for a kick? I was on my toes, and I lost my footing, so I fell, and my foot like...bent backwards? It was just in a position a foot should never be in. And, it killed. It still hurts, but not as bad as before. I'm limping everywhere, and I feel the need to apologize to everyone stuck behind me in the halls, because I walk so slowly. The worst part is definitely that I can't really dance, though. I'm sure that the moment I can dance full out, I will, and end up hurting myself again. That's just what I do.

there are no boundaries

Fri, 22 May 2009 19:37:59 GMT

I know, I know. I actually kind of love the song, as I love every Idol, cheesy, corny, another adjective that begins with c here, coronation song. I also love alliterations.

I'm very loving today, as no one showed up for my math class, so Ms. Boyle told us to, "Go outside and work on our math sheet." We didn't have a math sheet. I had off block last period. I had an afternoon full of nothing but this ridiculous, lovely (sense a pattern?), heat, and the first traces of summer. During B Block, I walked to Cole Harbour Place, and checked out a couple of books at the library. I'd planned to walk home, but my jeans were already clinging to me, so I went back to school, read outside until the bell, and then Nicole's dad drove me home for C Block. I watched the Kris interview on AI Extra (much more spazzing about this to come), watched bits of the Tyra show, and then went outside and read. I'm kind of loving one of the books I got, only a few chapters in, which is rare for me. I don't know what it's called, and I'm too lazy to look. But when I know, I'll recommend it. It's so rare to find a book with four main characters who are all well-developed, that makes you laugh out loud, and makes you feel something at the same time. I'll be finished it too soon.

Today has really made me realize that summer is coming, and even though I'll be kind of sad to leave high school, I'm not exactly ignoring the countdown. Just a few more weeks, and then it's summer, full of (hopefully) working but, mostly, relaxing, hot days, much like today. Reading outdoors, walking, writing until three in the morning, dancing all day...I'm lame, I know, but not much sounds better to me than that. Then, university, which as nervous as I am for, I'm definitely more excited for. When I was reading outside, sitting on a bench against the school, I was listening to Shattered by O.A.R., and heard the line, "In a way, I need a change from this burnout scene." That pretty much says it all.

I have tons more to say, but it's about 30 degrees outsides, so I'll update with American Idol & SYTYCD (SPAZ. That's all.) thoughts, as well as things actually happening in my life unlike this ramble of nothing, when it's gross out again.

"I liked my outfit."

Fri, 08 May 2009 01:18:18 GMT

So, American Idol thoughts. Some things to know before you read this, most of my thoughts involve Kris, Allison, and a bus. This isn't like the magic school bus that transforms to take you on fun, unpredictable adventures, no, this is the American Idol bus, where the idea of something new and unexpected makes it self-implode (well, that's redundant, thanks Ms. Nugent!), thus destroying any chance of excitement.

That was one heck of a run-on sentence. It was also a failed metaphor. Kind of like having ice for lunch. Take it out how you want to.

I hope Adam fans know that when I say I'm not a fan of his, I am not by any means taking anything away from him. At the beginning, I did have a couple of problems with him, but I don't. It's just not my taste, his voice doesn't really appeal to me. That does not mean that I don't think he has a ridiculous amount of talent, or that he's not deserving of the title. He most definitely is. He keeps me entertained, and for that, I've almost always wanted him to hit top three. Now that Allison is gone, he has to make the finale. I think that him against Kris, while predictable, would be a great show. His voice is definitely suited for rock, but everyone's known that for a while. I did enjoy his performance, it was fun, it was honest rock, no complaints here.

The bus started to pull up to the Idol stage when it was Allison's turn to perform. Was it a little repetitive? Yes, sure. Was it also amazing? Definitely. The performance had a flaw, but did the judges here the rest of it? Her ridiculous vocals, her emotion...I can't believe I'm saying this but, dude, she's only seventeen. That's crazy impressive. Whenever I see a performance I love, whether it be of music or dance, I've picked up the habit of yelling WERK (thanks, Mark Kanemura, and many other dancers!) at my television. Allison got a WERK. I think Adam may have, too.

Now, let's go through my reactions during the duet.
Kris and Adam have to do Under Pressure. Like Jacob and Shane on CI2, and if you remember this, you win. Everything. Or at least Kris and Allison, just not....oh. Well. Maybe it'll be ok! Yay faking optimism!
I LOVE RENEGADE (thanks Chris Daughtry!). Maybe this really will be ok! Yay real optimism!
ZOMG KRIS SQUEE. These harmonies are actually really good. I'm into it.
...Wait, shouldn't you look at each other during a duet?
Oh, Kris is looking! Danny, you going to interact with your partner?
...No, he's really not going to.
*cue natural defensive fangirl reaction when Simon said that Danny outsang Kris*
Kris looks pissed. 'Bout time.

All in all, I was kind of into it (I know, I'm the only one!). However, the judges kind of destroyed any chance of me loving it.

During the duet, the bus was coming close to Kris, but after Come Together, he was flung under it. Even though when he mentioned Revolution I imagined him doing it Across The Universe style and kind of internally spazzed, I do think that Come Together was the right choice for him. I was really into it. Loved the way he used his voice, adding all of these nuisances to the song, it made me want to keep listening (which is why the studio recording is very familiar with the repeat function). It wasn't my favourite performance of his, but I really did love it. I really don't think I'm being biased either. I would not say that it was as good as Adam or Allison, but it was definitely better than the judges gave it credit for. And, for rock not being his thing, I think he really did an amazing job with it. Clearly, he got a WERK.

Oh gosh, do I even really need to comment on Danny? I'll say this. The best part of his performance? That note was featured at the beginning of the MTV Aftershow, so I played that for my dad...his face was the best one I've seen since Ring of Fire. Ring of Fire was just kind of...confusion, but this one was horror. I'd say his jaw literally dropped, and he just kind of gaped at the screen. That made it all worth it for me. Also, I like that Danny laughed. Danny received no WERK, however.

I only have one problem with the Adam and Allison duet. Everyone with Guitar Hero World Tour must have the same one. Slow Ride is the easiest song, it's the one everyone plays when they're first learning...I have heard that song so much with awkward FAIL beeps throughout it, that it's kind of lost its essence. While I was watching the performance, I couldn't help but think red-blue-blue-red-yellow-blue (those could be completely wrong, beeteedubbs) etc. the entire time. Their performance definitely got a WERK though. I loved the way they werked with each other too, it was amazing.

Results show! Randomly throwing this in, because it just came on my iPod, I'm really into Matt's studio recording of Stayin Alive. I jam to it almost as much as the Hoedown Throwdown! Oh, and I read that if Matt had stayed, he would have done a duet with Kris with him on the piano, and Kris on the guitar. That would be all kinds of awesome.

Adam's "I liked my outfit" comment was almost enough to make me a fan. Seriously, SO MUCH LOL after that one. He seems like such a cool guy.

Paula Abdul, SO MUCH WERK. Which I wasn't expecting, at all. Obviously she was going to lip-sync, did we expect anything else? I really didn't mind. For someone her age, she can really dance! Oh, and prove that I am far too into SYTYCD:

WERK IT PAU...OHMYGOSHISTHATBENJISCHWIMMER?!?!

Yeah, it happened. I fangirled over Benji Schwimmer. The same thing happened when Travis Wall performed with Macy's Stars of Dance on DWTS, which, now that I found an excuse to talk about it, was RIDICULOUS!

Seriously, I was in awe the entire time. That right there, that defines WERK.

Anyways, Idol! Back to Paula, I'm into the song. I was definitely jamming to it.

No Doubt, you guys are awesome, but Gwen's vocals were not the best.

I think I may have actually squealed when Kris was announced safe, because I was so not expecting it. And his reaction was just all kinds of adorable. Kris, remain humble. It's endearing, really. And, his wife's reaction was just as amazing. After that, I realized that I didn't really care who went home. Well, that's not true, I wanted it to be Danny, but Kris is really my only favourite. As much as I love Allison, I wasn't nervous for her like I was for Kris.

I love Daughtry. So happy to hear new music from them!

I am bummed that Allison left, but as I said, I'm really only rooting for Kris at this point. Allison definitely went out on such a high note though, that last performance was all kinds of WERK. I really hope she has a successful future.

pop it, lock it, polka dot it

Thu, 07 May 2009 22:33:22 GMT

Don't judge.

Even though I love the Disney shows, I've never been a fan of Hannah Montana, but I did go to the movie...and loved (almost) every second of it. Honestly, it was so good! I have to tell everyone that I'm not kidding after saying that. Of course, it had its corny moments, but not near as many as I was expecting. They story was compelling, the acting was surprisingly great, and, well, I almost cried. There were actual tears in my eyes. I so wish that I was kidding.

Nothing was better than the Hoedown Throwdown, though, which Melissa and I are going to learn on off block. Watch for us in the pit.

It's been so long since I've given this a proper update, so this will be very random and scattered, basically talking about whatever comes into my mind next. Oh, my school is ridiculous. Fights, fire alarms pulled, standing outside in a t-shirt in the rain as a result, more fights, intense police, trophy case smashed, lockdown, school cancellation, off block spent in discussion...oh my. I missed the lockdown, thankfully. After the fire alarm incident, Ms. Boyle came into the library and told us that if we had a way home, we should leave. Nicole had her car, thankfully, and we left. And then, Cole Harbour High did the same thing. Of course they did. I heard that Astral had the alarm pulled as well, and that kids tried to start a fight, but it was just an epic fail. That kind of brought the lulz.

83% on my Physics test. That is so deserving of a WERK, especially since my other two tests produced an amazing 69% and, even better, a 66%. Thank you Mr. Ngo, for making your test and in-class about ten thousand times easier than Mr. Greer would have. My mark is very appreciative. And, I'm pwning the Simple Harmonic Test on Monday. Like, hardcore pwnage. So hardcore, that I have to say hardcore. I'm hoping for a repeat of the Torques quiz, my best mark outside of labs, which was a 93%. Why do all the easy units only last a week? Oh, and I hate Electrostatics so much, and we just started it. Though, playing with static electricity was a good time. I'm not sure I've ever had so much fun getting shocked.

I'm officially addicted to One Tree Hill. I know, it took me long enough. I didn't watch it from the beginning, and I thought that I'd be confused jumping in too late, so I never watched it. Well, MuchMusic decided to play it from the first episode and yeah, I don't know how people could wait a week for an episode. I can barely wait a day. They played the first four episodes in a marathon on Saturday, and after watching the first one, I was honestly so tempted to just watch the rest. Yep, four hours straight of One Tree Hill. But, I had to go to Hannah Montana, so it had to wait. Like I need another show, but whatever, I have one.

American Idol thoughts will come in another post because they're long enough to include all of my rants about the top four show, which I actually would have enjoyed greatly without that giant bus, that thankfully, missed Kris, but unfortunately, swerved and hit Allison.

!!!!!!

Fri, 01 May 2009 00:37:57 GMT

I can now officially be reached at Brianne.Carter@MSVU.ca

That kind of made me really excited. I am nervous to go to university, but at the same time, I've been waiting for this since junior high. It's so real now, and I'm so excited.

That's all.

i've had this song in my head all day

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 22:59:21 GMT

I discovered a few things last night.

Randy Jackson is the kind of judge that makes me appreciate Paula's odd analogies and mentions of 'special sauce', Kara's redundant tendencies and her inclination to bang the table, as well as Simon's perfectly calculated combination of honesty and manipulation.

I am supposed to love Quiten Tarintino much more than I do.

Two, sometimes inaccurate, critiques following each performance, instead of the usual four, still makes the show go overtime. This one still has me quite confused.

Anoop has no special someone, a fact that he revealed singing of the songs I'd consider for my future wedding song. That just needs to be mentioned.

I miss Nigel Lythgoe as producer. Yeah, who knew?

When I read the spoilers, many were upset at the overwhelming amount of ballads throughout the night. Considering the theme though, what were the contestants supposed to do? The big songs in movies are usually ballads, and great ones at that, so unless you can pull off "I Just Can't Wait To Be King" as well as Mr. Ngo can, a ballad seems like the best choice.

I wouldn't miss a few things about Allison's performance. Punny, right? I love the girl, but her performance was all kinds of underwhelming. She had a few moments, but overall, I just wasn't as excited as I've been over her past performances. Good, but not great. I was so surprised at the judges comments. So, after underpraising her from week one, you'll overpraise possibly her weakest performance to date? Um, say what? I'm kind of glad they did though, because she by no means deserves to go home, and if Simon Says stay, she'll stay. It's just how you play the game.

I realize that Bryan Adams ballads are not a favourite for many, but I love them. "Everything I Do (I Do It For You)" has always been one of my all time favourite songs, and as I said before, I'd consider it as my wedding song. Anoop must like it, too. Meant to be, no? Honestly, my fangirl hopes were slowly crushed as he sang that song, because he made me believe it. I believed that he was singing to the love of his life. His vocals were just gorgeous, and he had amazing control over his voice. The best part of the performance, though, was his commitment to it. He sang from his heart. "Always On My Mind" proved that Anoop had this beautiful ability to emote whilst delivering perfect vocals, and I've been waiting for him to do it again since. He finally did.

I honestly don't know what to say about Adam that hasn't already been said. His voice is ridiculous. His performances can be described by the same word, but it's really matter of opinion whether it's ridiculously awesome, or ridiculously awful. I love it when he straight up sings, but I'm not into the screaming and smoldering. Dude has definite talent though, and I can't deny that. Just not my thing. To his credit, I never fast forward him. Considering that my attention span rivals that of a two year old, that is quite the compliment. He seems like such a cool guy too, definitely gets personality points.

Matt is another one that plays on the border line of amazing and awful, but unlike Adam, few disagree on which side he lands on. He has amazing performances, and then he has awful ones. I want to be a fan, and I was, but then I cringe more than once during his performance last night. And yes, I actually, physically cringed. There were some parts of his performance with potential, but I think the cringe-worthy notes won out overall.

I didn't fast forward Danny, but I can barely remember his performance. Hated the beginning, liked the middle, loved the end. I'm really indifferent when it comes to him now, and I just hope that he doesn't outlast Kris, Allison or, and I can't believe I'm saying this, Adam.

When I read the spoilers, I didn't recognize Kris' song. When he began to sing it in his intro package, I recognized it from numerous dance videos, and had the natural reaction of ZOMGILOVETHISSONGSPAZ!!!!!111ONEONEONE. I was excited, to say the least. The beginning of the performance was off, and my excitement almost turned to dread, until he turned the performance around, and made it so I felt so much that I was blushing, and holding my hands over my mouth as though a massive SQUEE would be heard around the world otherwise. From that point, the beginning was forgotten, and he had me. He sang with such beautiful vocals, such control, and most importantly, such emotion. I not only watched the performance once after the fact, or twice, but three times between then and now, usually skipping the beginning. Now, I'm waiting for the studio recording like the impatient, twelve year old fangirl, Kris has made me. I really want to choreograph to it.

I have to mention Randy's critique of the performance. We watched the same first few seconds of the performance, but what about the rest? Do a few "pitchy" moments really overrule the rest of a brilliant performances, or did you just stop listening? I can think of so many other performances, in every season, where contestants had more than a few "pitchy" moments, and they'd be mentioned, but overruled by the, "But it doesn't matter, because you're the chosen one!" He could still say that those few off moments mattered, because I don't disagree, they did, but goodness, give him some credit for that bit of brilliance he gave to us. At least Kara had same sense (who knew?!), but I hate that she was cut off so quickly.

As Lil sang, I thought of the Marksie reunion during The Rose. Right before my DVR cut her off, I went to watch Chelsie on DWTS, while taking notes from Julianne and Tony on what my wedding dance with Anoop will look like.

I saw the studio recordings thread bumped on IDF, and got much too excited.

werk.

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 00:14:42 GMT

I'm not sure it's possible to watch this and feel nothing.

When NappyTabs are on, they're on. It was like another No Air and Bleeding Love. I may lose my status as a biased Marksie fangirl by saying this, but I think it was better than Bleeding Love. When I finished watching it, my first thought was to go back and watch it again. Talia did an amazing job with it, but BJ completely killed it. I could feel the emotion just escaping him with every move, and he made me feel as though I was falling in love with dance all over again. This right here is it, this is why I love dance.

I didn't go to see the city, I went to see it around you

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 02:08:41 GMT

The title of this is officially at the top of my favourite lyrics of all time list. Every time I hear it, I kind of squee and flail on the inside.

Survey time?

Have you seen the movie, Thirteen?
oh wow, that was forever ago
i kind of liked it?
but i definitely wasn't like that at thirteen

Are you in a good mood?
sure!

What's on your mind right now?
stuff

Anything you're giving up on?
erm, not really

Is there anyone getting on your nerves at the moment?
ish

Do you have a best friend?
i have a few :)

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
i just did!
laura and i went on an epic adventure. the plan was to go to midnight madness. the problem? there was no midnight madness. so, we grabbed an ice cream at mcdonalds, and both went home.
yep. we're cool.

Does anyone call you by your last name?
no?

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
...

Where were you yesterday?
school

Has someone put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
possibly?

Are you 'with' this person?
noo

How many windows are open on your computer?
just the one

Where will you be in 2 hours?
home

Where were you at 9am this morning?
in the car, going to school

How do you know the last person you were in a car with?
laura! she's been one of my best friends since i was six. we went to the same babysitters.

What's something you really want right now?
there are a few things...

Where were you at 2:00 this morning?
sleeping

Are you going anywhere far away during summer?
is ontario considered far away?

How has the week been?
stressful
but monday was exciting

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
not at all!

What were you doing at 7 am this morning?
waking up

Who was the last person in your bedroom?
me

Are you missing someone?
always

Its 4 in the morning and your phone rings, what do you do?
i'd answer, because anyone calling at 4 in the morning must have a good reason
if you don't, i'm hanging up. and yelling when i have more energy.

How is your heart lately?
working

Are you talkative?
with certain people, yes
in general, no

What were you doing at midnight last night?
watching gilmore girls in bed/falling asleep

Something you can't wait for?
easter dinner saturday night & easter sunday!

Will you talk to someone on the phone later?
doubt it

Did you tell anyone you love them today?
i don't think so?

Were you happy when you woke up today?
sure

Last person you talked to on the phone?
dad

If you're being extremely quiet what's it mean?
usually, nothing at all
really, i'm a quiet person. i don't need that to be pointed out to me as if i'm not aware (really, why do people do that?), and chances are, there's nothing wrong. if i'm being extremely quiet around my family, laura, nicole, melissa, etc., then there's a problem.

Do you regret anything from your past?
rentheads aren't allowed to regret
really. it's true.

Last time you were confused?
when laura and i got to the mall and realized there was no one there lol

Who was the last girl you talked to?
laura louu

Who was the last boy you talked to?
my dad

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
yes!

What is in your schoolbag right now?
math binder & textbook

What is your current mood(s)?
happy

What color shirt are you wearing?
pink

How do you feel about your hair right now?
eh, i've really stopped noticing it?
i'd like to get it cut, but i'm always so stressed, that i kind of forget to?
really, my hair has stopped existing to me. must be lovely for everyone else to look at.

How old do you want to be when you have kids?
late 20s/early 30s?

Would you tattoo someone's name on your body?
noo

Are you ticklish ?
very

What makes you laugh no matter what?
whose line is it anyways

Will you get married?
i hope so

Are you happy with yourself?
eh, i'm getting there

When did you last cry?
last week(end)?

If your parents didn't like the person you were dating, would you break up them?
really depends

Do you really think ex's can be friends?
sure

If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?
if i can take a couple of things with me, then sure
and that's exactly what i'm doing next year

The last time you screamed?
i don't really scream?

Does any part of your body hurt?
right before i got to this question, my back started to kill
well, at least i have an answer now?

Are you getting mad right now?
no?

If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret what would you do?
million dollars

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you talk to a lot?
yess

Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
no thanks

What were you doing 1 hour ago?
watching the tyra show

What different things did you drink today?
orange juice, fruitopia, diet coke

Is there success in your future?
i hope so!

Are you a heavy sleeper?
not at all

Was today a good day?
by the afternoon, yeah

Do anything exciting today?
definitely my adventure with laura

Have a favorite class in school?
Nothing this semester, but my favourites of high school were Advanced English 11, and Global Geography 12. I also had my two favourite teachers in that course, Ms. Nugent and Mr. MacKenzie. I miss those semesters so much.

What are you going to do when you graduate?
going to the mount!

Is reading a waste of time?
definitely not

Do you over think things often?
all the time

What makes you cry?
everything?

What are you doing for your next birthday?
i have no idea

you're such a mess with an attitude

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 22:50:55 GMT

I love Kelly Clarkson. I know, insert 'duh' here. Honestly, is there anyone who doesn't like her? I realize that not everyone is a fan of hers, but I haven't seen many people who really dislike her. She has to be the least bashed Idol winner there's been. I wonder what would happen if American Idol took it back to basics, would we get another Kelly? But, on the flip side, who would watch the show?

There are two contestants this season I'm excited about. Out of a top thirteen, there are two albums (possibly three, just to avoid having to buy a Justin Timberlake CD, but receiving the same product) I would buy. So, why not just run to youtube for their performances? Well, copyright sucks. And, I'd miss the intense intros, Ryan awkwardly rushing the show, Kara learning how to count to ten and, all in all, the dramarama. I'm asked why I still watch, and that's it. I'm a very immature person.

I'm really not sure if I like this theme or not. The night was underwhelming as whole (though, a vast improvement compared to last week), but it's a nice concept, allows for a nice range of songs to pick from, and, of course, baby pictures. Though, I have to say that even the baby pictures were a disappointment this season. However, the video of Matt performing in that play, and his 72 lines, made it all worthwhile.

I fast forwarded through Danny. Honestly, I don't even care enough to dislike him anymore. He's just kind of there.

Let's face it, nothing will lessen my love for Kris now. His performance was definitely his worst, but I don't think that it was as bad as the judges made it out to be. At least he sang in tune, which I usually wouldn't compliment in a singing competition, but it is more than I can say for a couple of other contestants. It did become boring though, and very easy to forget. I'm so glad that he was safe, because I don't believe that one bad performance should send him home, while others have had many more, and stuck around for much too long. He broke my heart when he was announced safe, though.

'Noop Dogg (do I spell that differently every time? I think I do) immediately scored some points with my by singing True Colors, one of my favourite songs of all time. Of course, he needs no more points with me. I really don't know why I love him. I could state some of the obvious reasons, like his singing, but I honestly don't think that's it. I just love the dude. I've realized though that I won't mind if he goes home, but I'll enjoy him while he is on the show. Can Lil at least leave before him though, please? I fast forwarded her. Again.

I fast forwarded through Scott's performance, and it sounds like that was a smart choice. I can't say that I'm sad to see him go, but I really do wish all the best to him in the future.

Matt worked it out. There's not much more to say. He's not with Kris and Allison at the top of my favourites list, but I am pulling for him.

There are two reasons I'll dance during a performance. The first reason? I'm bored, and I've already fast forwarded through so much of the show that I've run into live television, leaving me with nothing to do but dance as Lil performs Heatweave. The second reason? There's so much emotion, that I have to. It's the same with any emotional song that I love, I have to dance to it. My favourite songs are the ones I dance to. I danced all throughout Allison's performance. I don't need to say more, but I will. Her voice is beautiful, but the best part? She sang straight from the heart, and it was gorgeous, heart-wrenching, and completely perfect.

Now, I rely on my DVR. I really don't watch live televison anymore. So, I didn't see Adam, and honestly, I was disappointed. I read the song spoilers, and the moment I saw he was doing Mad World, I imagined him doing the Gary Jules version, and I got really excited. From Tracks of my Tears, I knew that he could connect to the emotion of it, and obviously his voice is crazy, so what else could I ask for? Maybe actually seeing the performance on television? I did watch it, on an avatar on IDF. I so wish I was kidding about that, but I happened to click on one, and there it was. I didn't look away from the page, I was completely enthralled by that small glimpse of his performance. I do believe that it deserved the praise it received. I'm still hesitant to call myself an Adam fan, because after he does something like Tracks of my Tears, he does Play That Funky Music. Michael Slezak described it best: it's a rollercoaster ride with him. You know that parts will be terrifying, and you may throw up, but you hang on for those amazing moments. It's kind of obvious that he'll win, and while he wouldn't be my choice, I'd want him to make it to the top three with Kris and Allison. At least he's entertaining, and when he's good, he's brilliant.

last time you kissed me, you kept both eyes open

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 23:17:22 GMT

I have my Learners!

Usually, this would not be something all that exciting, but since Nicole and I concluded there's something against me getting my Learners, I'm quite happy. Let's recap each try:
1. I failed by one point.
2. The servers went down.
3. Our car broke down.
4. The servers were standing, our car was running, and I passed with two points to spare!

I'm so excited that it's over with, it's been weighing on me for so long now considering all the times we tried. I may be one of the last in grade twelve to get my Learners, but I'll still count this as a success.

Today was kind of weird day. I woke up from a dream about today, that I can't remember now, but was pretty much like, "Yeah, this day is going to suck. Hardcore." It was odd. And, it only half true. There were parts of today I hated, and parts I loved. Let's start with what I hated, so it looks like I'm becoming more positive with time. I hated Physics class, and realizing that I don't have a half a clue what I'm doing when it comes to projectile motion. This is a problem, considering we have a test on Tuesday. Well, at least now I'm freaking out, like I wanted to be yesterday. I hated waiting at Access Nova Scotia, and the twenty thousand times I somehow embarrassed myself there. I hated how that completely drained my energy, and how I couldn't focus on all the homework I had to get done, half of which is BS, the other half of which will be done on off tomorrow.

But then, there were things I loved. Getting my Learners is definitely on that list. Also, ISCF was really nice today, despite the fact that no one showed up. It was Nicole, Jessica, and me. That's it. It was so awkward at first, Jason wasn't saying anything, so I just kind of stared at my food like turkey was the most fascinating thing I'd ever tasted. Then, we continued in Galatians, finished it actually, and got to talking about that. Jason can read me like no one else can, it's kind of ridiculous. Better than my family, better than Laura, better than Nicole, even better than Katie used to, and she'd tell me what I was feeling before I felt it. We were just talking, and he looks at me and goes, "You look like you have something you want to say." And I just stared at him for a second, and was like, "I do!" I'm not the most talkative person in that group, so it's not like I'm always jumping into discussions, making this moment odd in a really, really cool way. And, it's not the first time he's done it. In fact, there's rarely been a time where he hasn't sensed that there's something on my mind. It's weird, but so cool. Also, he brought up my mom, which no ever does. I was surprised he remembered the details for one thing, and the timing was oddly appropriate, since her birthday is on Saturday. It was just the perfect time to talk about her to someone who I trust more than just about anyone. I needed that, and I'm so grateful for it.

I have no hopes of a segway with this topic change, so I'll just jump right into it. I'm going to be in a movie! I love introducing it like that, because it's true...just not as cool as it sounds :P On Monday, Laura and I are skipping out on school (with our parent's permission, because we're such rebels), and going to be extras in the remake of the movie Ice Castles. I think it will be really cool just to be on the set of a movie, so I'm excited. Also, on the radio they announced that household name will be there, but they're not allowed to say who yet, so that has the potential to be exciting! Whenever this movie comes out, you know Laura and I will go and be like, "Look, we're the dots in the stadium!"

American Idol thoughts after the cut!

I've never been so enthused about a results show. Honestly, I much preferred it to the performance show. I don't think I fast forwarded through anything!

I still love these intense intros. It makes me feel like I'm part of something really important, and not wasting an hour of life waiting for Kris Allen to do something cute.

The Ford music video was hilarious this week, thanks to Kris rapping. Really, after that, I had to believe that it would be a great night.

I hate that the group performance's are lip-synched, but this one was kind of awesome. I credit that to the song, and the Kris/Allison duet at the beginning. Shipping Kris and Allison feels odd, but I love their brother/sister thing going on.

I loved the segment of a week in an Idol's life, and then of course, the impersonations. Every single one cracked me up, but I think Anoop's of Kris was my favourite. They need to do more stuff like that, I like seeing that the Idols are you know, real people.

I'd never heard Cook's new song, but I was really into it last night. I really need to look into his music.

APRIL FOOLS SUCKA. That was exactly why I was watching the show last night, for a moment like that. Honestly, after that, I was completely satisfied. Kris needs to be my best friend, Allison too, who shouldn't have been in the bottom three at all. Duh.

LADY GAGA. WERK. I've really changed my mind about her. When she performed on SYTYCD, my reaction was.... That's it. Just .... This time though, I was so into it. I love that she can actually sing, I love how she works a stage, I just love her. Best pop artist in a long time.

I know a lot of people weren't happy with Simon telling Megan that they didn't care, but I was. Everyone knows that they wouldn't save her anyways, so why pretend? What's wrong with wanting a little bit of honesty in American Idol? I'm so glad that Megan was just able to have fun with her last performance.

don't build your world around volcanoes

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 00:05:47 GMT

You know those songs you love, but you always forget that you have them, so every time they come on you get really happy, because it's the best surprise? Or maybe you don't know, and I need to stop skipping through 100 songs when I listen to my iPod. Either way, "Volcano" by Damien Rice is one of those songs. I credit my love for it to this dance:

Come on, Tucker Barkley and Erica Sobol? It really doesn't get better than that.

I was honestly so bored by American Idol last night that I'm not sure I can make somewhat interesting commentary on it, so I'll keep this shorter than usual. I fast forwarded through Megan, Danny (though I was kind of blown away in the recap, so I may go back), and Lil. Scott was, oddly enough, my third favourite of the night. I am, however, biased torwads any and every Billy Joel song. Allison worked it out yet again, and I hate that the judges brushed off her brilliant vocals and performance to place a greater importance on her outfit. I liked Matt much more than the judges did, but I'm also biased towards and every song by The Fray. And Matt, for that matter. I forget the exact wording, but one judge said they didn't see the song being a popular current hit? I'm sorry, what? Last time I checked, You Found Me is a pretty huge song at this very moment. On that note, why was Matt the only one to pick a truly current song?

Kris is ridiculous. I love him. And I spelled ridiculous right on the first try.

Oh, Mr. Bates finally gave me a nickname! Ace! Nicole and I, being who we are, both went, "Like Rory in Gilmore Girls!" I'm pwning that class, because I have to. My physics and math mark are both in the 70s (major EW to math, I thought I was doing better than that), so if I have any hope of making Honours Roll, I need to keep my Economics mark at a 99. I did it in Global Geo, so I'm sure I can do it in Economics as well if I don't slack off. Also, I'm sure I can bring my math mark up, but who knows what will happen with the provincial. And, I'm actually doing better in Physics. We have a test on Tuesday, and this is how I feel about it: I'm freaking out, because I'm not freaked out. I'm completely comfortable with torques and momentum. As of Friday, I'm almost sure I'll be completely comfortable with projectile motion (thank goodness Mr. Ngo is teaching us arguably the easiest unit.) Actually, I think I need my in-class back to know how comfortable I am with momentum. I think I did well, but last time I thought I did well on an in-class, I believe I got a 50%. Still, I don't feel right not freaking out.

Funny story. Melissa and I were talking about how we couldn't wait for our brothers to come home at the end of physics. My brother is a genius, who Mr. Greer loved. I said, "I can't wait for my brother to come home to help me with physics." Mr. Greer totally heard me, and laughed at me :P It was funny if you were there, really. On that note, Chris comes home at the beginning of May! It's soon now, I'm so excited, as is my physics mark.

I have more to say, but I have no idea what it is.

Writer's Block: How Soon Is Now?

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 22:50:20 GMT

What scientific or medical breakthrough do you most want to happen in your lifetime?

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A cure for all cancers.

how sweet it is to be loved by you

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 21:41:19 GMT

Oh Kris Allen, you have made me love American Idol again. Please, continue to sing love songs out of the side of your jaw. It's adorable, and thus earning you many fangirls. The end. Except, not really.

I'll save my American Idol thoughts for the end, after a cut, so they don't make this entry look ridiculously (did you know that I can't spell that word, despite using it in ever sentence?) long. This week was amazing, which is not to be expected for the week after March Break, but I honestly preferred this week to last. It's because on Sunday, thanks to God, I decided to make a change. I don't like who I've been lately, so I'm going to change. It's that simple. It's been a week, and I'm already so much happier. I'm making my life about God again, and while I'm still nowhere near where I want to be with my faith, I know that I'm on the right path. I've also decided, with the help of God of course, to write a book. I know this isn't the first time I've said that, but I feel it this time. It's right, this is the right time, I just know it. I'm not expecting to be published or anything (though, that would be amazing!), but if I can write one book, who says I can't write another and try again? I'm so excited to really get started on it.

Jesus to the Nations this weekend! I've never been, so I'm really excited to see what it's like. I'm going tonight with Nicole, and possibly tomorrow with Melissa? I'm hoping a certain soul mate of mine will be there :P Ohh, and it's at the Mount, which is so exciting! I can't wait to be on the campus again. I really want to sneak into residence to find my room lol, which I officially have now! Having the room just makes it feel so much more real, like I'll really be living there next year. Not to be redundant, but it's exciting.

In Economics today, we watched a movie that showed the Phoenix Concert Theatre. I got so excited just seeing the inside of the club again, it totally brought me back to that amazing night. I spazzed to Nicole about how that was where I saw Missy Higgins and, needless to say, she was a tad less excited :P I'm so nostalgic right now, that night was honestly perfect, it could not have gone any better.

American Idol thoughts!

The intros for American Idol really do just become more intense every week, and I love it. I even turn the lights off to add to the dramarama. No lie.

LJ deleted my thoughts about Matt, so I'll just say that Kara was right. Moving on.

LJ also deleted half of my thoughts about Kris, so I'll just start by saying that he's my favourite contestant, and therefore I am extremley biased. He's making smart choices (which is more than can be said for most other contestants), and he just gets better and better with every performance. I loved everything about his performance on Wednesday. Honestly, no complaints over here. He did everything right. And he's cute.

From this point, I don't remember the order. Scott is boring, and can barely sing. I fast forwarded through Michael and Megan, and neither of those choices are ones I regret. After auditions, Megan was my favourite. I wish she could bring that back.

'Noop Dawg! His performance was boring, but that's ok. Why? Because I have this oddly massive crush on him. Like, he's right there with Kris for me on my fangirl radar. Maybe it's his beautiful voice, maybe it's his sexy geek thing, maybe it's how much fun I have saying his name. Whatever the reason, I love this kid. I hope he can be exciting next week while keeping the vocals the way they have been the past two weeks. Dude, was Buy You A Drank a top iTunes download? If it was, he has to sing that. If you haven't seen him perform it with the Clefhangers, well, you need to watch it.

Yeah. That's hot.

Oh, Lil was boring too. Next.

I finally liked Adam. It's no secret I haven't been a fan of him, but he did what I've wanted him to do for a while now on Wednesday night. He sang a song, without the theatrics, and it was amazing. I've never questioned his ability to sing, the dude has a ridiculous voice, but I've never been a fan of the way he used said voice. He finally used it just to sing, and emoted beautifully. See, I'm not completely biased!

Allison, way to werk. That was the perfect performance, and if I wasn't a fangirl, it would be my favourite of the night (sorry Allison, but you don't look much like Kris, nor do you sing out of the side of your jaw...why do I find that to be so adorable?). If I were to be unbiased (lulz) I'd call it the best performance of the night. That was so, so awesome. I really hope she lasts for a while, because I believe she deserves the title more than anyone else does.

The results show was a hot mess. The group performances are now lip-synched and pre-recorded? That was so awkward just to watch. The most awkward thing, though, had to be Ruben's performance. It was pre-taped, but they cut to the contestants reaction to watching a taped performance live? It was some of the most awkward, odd, and bad editing I've ever seen. Idol's production has been so bad this season. Except for the intense intros. I do love those.

Matt shouldn't have been in the bottom three. Duh. Ryan needs to stop messing with Kris, because he is messing with me, too.

Ryan: Kris, you are also...
Me: DGFDFESH AMERICA, YOU'RE DUMB. EXCEPT WITH WORSE LANGUAGE. YES, MY THOUGHTS WERE IN CAPS LOCK. *FANGIRL EXPLOSION*...oh, he's safe. I knew that.

Stevie Wonder is awesome. Duh. Kris dancing had to be my favourite thing, ever. I love people who let go for live music, which is why I would love to go a concert with him. Anoop was cute, too.

I'm glad Michael left, but I hate the judge's save. An elimination should be just that, an elimination. They should reflect on their journey and all that other sentimental stuff, not sing for their life while the judges are dancing instead of deliberation. It just feels so uneccessary, and I feel so bad for the contestants. Michael handled it so well though, he's a class act. I think someone should do what Micahel Slezak suggested Alexis Grace do - take the mic, and sing any song, acapella. That would be amazing televison.

OH, and on the performance show, the ridiculous comment of the night goes to none other than Paula Abdul. No, it's not Kara's inability to count (let's pretend all I picked up on that before it was pointed out), but rather Paula telling either Kris or Adam (my short-term memory is in bad shape) that it was great how they always challenged their artistic integrity. I'm sorry, what? Isn't integrity something one would want to have, especially as an artist? I'm not sure why one would ever want to challenge that. However, I'm also not sure why one would ever want to dangle David Archuleta's head from the rearview mirror. It seems that I have a lot to learn from Paula Abdul.

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Sat, 21 Mar 2009 04:14:34 GMT

It's the first day of spring in the Northern Hemisphere and the first day of autumn in the Southern Hemisphere. What season do you want it to be where you live?

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Oh, there's no question about this. I am so happy today, because spring has always been my favourite season. The weather just keeps getting nicer and nicer (let's all pretend that it's not supposed to snow this coming week), t-shirts replace sweaters, a light coat replaces the blanket I wear every day, I can read outside (!), I can walk (!!), and everything just becomes beautiful. I love it :)